Mutilation

Mutilation

Mutilate

To cut off or permanently destroy a limb. Cripple. To cut up or alter radically to make imperfect.

In the beginning, the infant was perfection. Soft skin, bright shining eyes, its tiny essence still residing in the grasp of the divine spirit, clasped softly in the arms of true grace and love. The God presence creates only perfection.

One then asks, how does this relate to self-mutilation? In the realm of the lifestyle commonly identified as D/s, a considerable number of those seeking its comfort have been triggered by years or sometimes a lifetime of physical molestation, violation of trust, faith, belief, love, and hope. An abuse of the individual's divine spirit. These damaged children (metaphorically speaking, abuse generally is first encountered as a young child, and the child's agony remains - for this paper, the child is in its current physical reality a grown adult) seek the arms of kindness and understanding of the conflicts and wars raging within them. Within the assaults that they have endured, there has also been excitement, arousal, and a sense of value from the act of being so used. The larger community of men chastens these children, telling them once again that their feelings are wrong and that they should rise above them. Yet, this is all they have ever known. Their understanding of the world is colored by their experiences. They are once more being told they are invalid.

D/s in its true spiritual state is a process of healing and balance. Freedom to be the true core self. This self is often at odds with acceptable societal measures. Rather than discuss that aspect here, let us focus directly on the extreme edge that some individuals live on when they seek the assistance of those who can and will accept, comfort, and love them truly. The child/submissive that mutilates. Takes knives, glass, razors, needles, and other things to themselves in a desperate effort to release their fury, rage, and pain. They turn these things upon themselves because they believe they are imperfect, unworthy, of less value than the person/s who have damaged them. It is a masochistic demonstration of love and agony. Within all of this, the child has loved the person who has injured them. Has felt truly beneath that person, deserving of the abuse.

At this point, the child wishes to destroy themselves, wishes to release the pain of loss of hope. Asks "please take me, please love me, please cherish me, please hurt me." They truly believe that through personal damage they please others, and they even find momentary relief in the sensations of extreme pain and the letting of blood. If this child falls into the hands of a Sadist, they may become one of the fatalities. Please understand that Sadists are not D/s. A Sadist inflicts pain solely because it pleases them, not to give pleasure to another.

The Dominant that encounters this child will first severely admonish the child for damaging their perfection. Healing this child (who is submissive) is possible. It becomes immediately necessary to redirect the submissive's desire to self-mutilate. By making the submissive the property of another (even in purely a mentoring capacity), the Dominant can then tell the submissive that they no longer have permission to injure themselves. It is then critical to begin rebuilding the bridges toward mental health and true inner peace. The violent rage must be released. This can be achieved through daily letters from the submissive to every violator they have encountered in their lives. The submissive should give each of these letters to their Dominant/mentor/healer. I should note here that actually sending the letters to the perpetrators is not necessary and often impossible, as many of the perpetrators have become deceased. They should express everything: rage, violation, hurt, agony, and love. Everything. This process can take a long time, but the results of spiritual release will be very obvious quickly. It may also be helpful for the submissive to seek and use medication for depression. I will also note (though this will be considered controversial to many) that standard therapy may do more damage here than good; therapy tends to down the already severely vulnerable individual before healing. In general, many submissives who enter standard therapy treatments emerge with strong divisions, splits in personality, and conflict. Primarily, this occurs because the therapy tries to cure the submissive's continuing desire to submit.

The submissive is being permitted to be heard for the very first time in their life. Offered the opportunity for their voice to become valid. Indicates they are of true value to the Dominant. Along with this therapy, conversation should continue regarding the safe, loving, and gentle usage of pain or physical triggers within the submissive. The submissive will always associate pain with pleasure and arousal, and directing this into safe and sane methods is paramount. It allows the submissive to eventually lead a healthy, robust, and loving life. Joyful and strong within oneself.

For those of you who made it through all of this, some psychiatric specialists treat persons in 'Kink' lifestyles. Some can be reached through Kink Awareness Professionals on the Web, or KAP. The link is in the WEB section!

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